I’m terrified. I stopped creating/ practicing art for about 3 years. I still haven’t talked about it here, about what happened and why I had to go on a voluntary sabbatical from art making, but now I feel the need to go back to it. I know I have to do this because I am slowly withering away. I feel dead inside. I need to find my voice again.
So, I’m starting from scratch. I’m giving myself permission to make a mess and to create bad art. I need to strengthen my sea legs and I know that this would take time, practice, dedication, commitment, and a lot of faith.
I received the Baohong watercolor sketchbook yesterday. I ordered it from Lazada about 5 days ago when it went on sale. It’s academy grade, 300 GSM, cold pressed, acid-free, and 100% cotton. Good specs, but quite affordable, so I’m don’t mind wrecking it. Purrrrfect. 😁
I started with a rough sketch. When was the last time I drew in pencil?? I had a reference from Pinterest, but quickly forgot about it once I started painting. In the picture, the woman’s hair was in a bun, but I wanted her hair untied.
Maybe that’s why the proportions are a bit wonky… Go away, Inner Critic.
Anyway, my go-to paint is Windsor & Newton’s watercolor in Payne’s Grey. I love, love, love Payne’s Grey. It was a good medium and color to start with on my Sketchbook Wrecking Journey. I was literally shaking, 1) because I had new coffee beans and, boy, were they strong! And 2) I was terrified. So my brushstrokes were measured and everything felt tight and rigid. But I’ll take this over nothing. I’d rather have a sketchbook full of uruk-hais, gnomes, and blob fish than an untouched, pristine watercolor journal.
This is Day 1.