I couldn’t sign in yesterday. I hated not being able to blog and keep my promise. But, sigh, I did my best. Breathe.
Practiced yoga yesterday and the cats kept me company. Purrrrfect.
It’s been almost a month since my last entry. I’ve not only been a lapse blogger, but a lapse-a-lot-of-things since the end of July. Thank God August has been good and that my head is starting to clear up. Today I’ve devised a way for me to stick to my responsibilities, goals and promises. So this means that not only will I blog every day, I’m going to do yoga or some form of exercise, write in my journal, read, meditate, and–the most important thing of all–create every single day from now on. I’m going to talk more about this next time.
I’m keeping this short. I still need time to organize my thoughts and work on my plan for recovery. I leave you with this photo of my journal. I was a bit upset and needed to spew everything out on page. 🙂 Not the prettiest thing in the world, but who cares, right? It is what it is.
Good night and happy weekend! 🙂
I visited some friends in Jakarta and Hong Kong last November/December. I brought with me a brand new cahier notebook from Moleskine so that I could document my journey. I had a lot of fun drawing and pasting and cutting… 🙂 I love my friends for letting me sit still and work, and who patiently waited for me to come back from Wonderland. 🙂
Here’s a spread from the Jakarta leg of my journey and my journal entry written on the plane on the way to Hong Kong. To more trips and adventures this year! 🙂
I thought I was going to have a jam-packed day today, but unfortunately all my plans were literally flushed down the toilet.
Last Wednesday night I made the mistake of eating the last piece of chicken empanada, a leftover from New Year’s lunch. I was halfway through it when I noticed that there was something off about the texture. I threw the rest of it out and that was that. Or at least I thought that was the end of it. Come 3AM I suddenly woke up because of a painful stomach cramp. That started my non-stop 5 -minute rendezvous with my toilet, which went on for most of the day. My stomach started to feel less turbulent Friday morning, but I made the mistake of putting a bit of butter on my toast… and that just start the cycle all over again. Sigh.
I was feeling more confident this morning, ate my toast sans butter, and got ready for work. Like some cosmic joke, my stomach started grumbling the minute I fished my keys out of my bag to lock the apartment. After three quick meetings with my toilet, I found myself on my bedroom floor, clutching my mobile whilst calmly telling the parents of my students why I had to cancel class last minute. So there I was, stuck at home once again.
I must admit, I am handling this whole purging thing really well. This situation forced me to be still (on my ceramic throne) and think about things. Some of my goals for the new year are: to be more healthy, to treat my body better, to stay away from toxic people and things, and to spend more quiet time with myself. Guess what? This little uncomfortable illness just gave me what I needed. Like what I’ve been telling myself for a while now, out with the bad, in with the good. Now that you think about it, purging at the beginning of the new year ain’t that bad. 🙂
My little muse will definitely force me to do it. 🙂
Or maybe not… ;o)